Saturday, October 29, 2005

... I've been ignoring you.

I've not really been ignoring you. Because now that you have daddy to keep you company, you won't be all that lonely anymore. In fact, now I'm the one who's lonely :( Daddy and I used to keep talking about you. I hope both of you talk about me too. Take care of each other, and I'll take care of whoever's down here.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

... I realised you're not alone anymore.

You have daddy with you. You're own elder brother. Maybe you needed him more than we did, and so he came to be with you. Daddy really did love you a lot, and he cried numerous times thinking about you. Now he's with you and he need to cry no more. You better make sure he's laughing all the time, okay? I love you both.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

... because one year ago to this day I was finally convinced that God doesn't exist.

I will always love you, Ravi Chit. Always. Nothing and nobody can change that.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

... because I honestly have no clue what to say this week.

Cross my heart and hope to die.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

... I'm suddenly finding it harder to put in words what I'm feeling right now.

You probably don't want a recap of it all again. So I'd rather not say anything.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

... I'm back in that part of the world where I'm my own master.

And I'll always make sure that there's enough time to spend with you. You obviously don't need my words on a blog to know how much I love you, but I'm selfish. It makes me feel good to say it and so I will, again and again and again. I love you, Ravi Chit.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

... I was asked to pray today.

I've never really been a religious person. You know that. I was indifferent to the concept of god. However, ever since you've gone, I am sure that there is no god. Or if there's one, there's really no apparent use of him in my life. So basically to me, he doesn't exist. I don't need to pray to the same being to give me strength who has caused me the pain in the first place. But today I realized that you are him for me. What most people need god for, I need you for the same reasons. When I'm afraid, I think of you. When I'm sad, I think of you. When I'm happy, I especially think of you. You are my god. But you have your own identity. So I'm not going to use a term that the entire world uses. To me, Ravi Chit stands for that and even more.

... I was asked to pray today.

I've never really been a religious person. You know that. I was indifferent to the concept of god. However, ever since you've gone, I am sure that there is no god. Or if there's one, there's really no apparent use of him in my life. So basically to me, he doesn't exist. I don't need to pray to the same being to give me strength who has caused me the pain in the first place. But today I realized that you are him for me. What most people need god for, I need you for the same reasons. When I'm afraid, I think of you. When I'm sad, I think of you. When I'm happy, I especially think of you. You are my god. But you have your own identity. So I'm not going to use a term that the entire world uses. To me, Ravi Chit stands for that and even more.